Friday, May 7, 2010
Before Read this Diary of Mine tentang Rahman yg akan ku tutupi bukunya buat kali terakhir.
Open song : Jujur - Radja
hello laila's readers,
byk sgt criter lailaa nak story kan..
just that mayb no one can understand whats laila trying to say .
Since 5 April 2010,i still have a hope,a hope of Light that trying to tell lailaa something.
is it that i STILL love that guy that had been playing wif my feelings ?
eheh for whart?! but the feelings getting more and more serious.
In the first place,he wanted me to be his Best Friend,and i try it.
But things getting worse and worse since we BROKE up bcoz of TAKDIR?
and from there onwards i tell myself that i cant b friend,Best Friend,Special Friend and even
a 'S' one heree adq agkt.
i Just CANT euu know that RAHMAN?! i just wanna take out his BRAIN and XPLAIN to him everything that have been hurting me,that has been making me misses him alot.
But dulu sampai skrg TAK FAHAM FAHAM what i'm trying to say! mayb dah TAKDIR
diyee tak akn faham perasaan lailaa.
He just a guy that HAVE MESSING ME AROUND D; (i'm sad to say this to public,but its true)*(If eu read this rahman, u just dont need to understand anymore,coz eu gt "her" alreadi..so..dont need to understand me anymore. i Just need my friend to understand me THAT'S FINAL)*
i can't take it. i think i shud tell eu guyys and ladies abt what type of person he was.
(sorry rahman D;)
*(the positive side of him)*
- he got the sweet talk in him;
- he got the looks (stdying wif him not by his looks)
- he got the some kind of things that makes my life happier
- he got the SPECIAL SMILE that always make my day
- he got the some of way he use to make everything alright when i was wif him
- he got the way by making himself what is wrong what is correct ( when i was wif him)
- he such a caring guy (i can see by the way he React even do he didnt show it to me)
- he kind-hearted
- he Setia ( dalam permulaannyer)
- he has the TRUST to hold wif ( dalam permulaannyer)
- he got the EVERYTHING . and lastly i wanna tell eu guyss and ladies,
- he is just MY SEMPURNA
*(the negative side of him,the Real i've been taste)*
- he in Hot-Tempered so "d" fast
- he got the face that makes me scared of him
- he is "d" fast Jealous (for those whom he LOVEE the MOST)
- he is not SETIA (lastly i get to know this)
- he is not good at Understanding
- he in SULKING "d" fast
- he peSelingkuh / pengKhianat
- he has MANY ways that makes me cry all day
(i'm sorry rahman,i just want to xpress my feeling all this while what i've been feeling
dulu sampai skrg)
He's not mine anymore.he has My Replacement since he broke up wif me.
i thought of keeping my PROMISE this time for him. but he himself can't keep the Promise that
diyee pernah Melafazkan yg pernah Bermain di bibi diyee. so i've made my decision, i will pth kan Promise aq jgk,kerana diyee pthkan janji diyee aq pthkan janji aq jgk. klaw diyee tk pthkan janji diyee aq tk kan pthkn janji aq jgk. Betape sedeyh nyer aq terPakse pthkan janji-janji aq semua.
Pernah ke diyee terfikir semua tuu ? dh terlmbt Lailatul Munawara, diyee dh ade penganti kaw. agaknyer aq harus mengaku kalah aje. ini dh TAKDIR Tuhan. diyee yg cadangkan,kyter yg sepatutnyer terimee.
For those who wanna know, i've been wif him 1 year+ but all that years had made me realised that
i've done BEST for him but i get back What ? its okeaa, i be patience now,get reward later ..
1 year + wif him get wasted just like that *Click*
he has Gone from my Life. he has Gone Forever. he Wont come back. he Wont be wif me anymore.
he has My Replacement. he should "Bahagia" wif "her". he Wont be missing me anymore. he Wont TANGGUNG his suffering anymore. he Wont be Loving me anymore.
He will forget me one day. he will hate me one day. he will Go On wif his Life secare Sempurna.
Untuk Muhammad Nur Rahman Matrawi 10 November 1995 this is the last sentence i'm gonna say.
eu are SEMPURNA and eu are also peSelingkuh.
The Book About 26 FEBRUARY 2009 will closed forever . There's no key to open the book again,unless something weird happend,then it will open with Light.
mayb one day ? we dont know .. but for Now ...
Go On wif ur LOVE onces and make her happy .
FAREWELL , GOODBYE & SELAMAT TINGGAL KEKASIH GELAPKU :'(
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